Day 1:

November 5, 2014

I didn't sleep too well last night. We had a little monkey in the bed with us. He is not feeling very well and I spent last night at after hours care with him.  He has strep.  I woke up around 5:30 and couldn't go back to sleep, so I just got up. I am trying to drink more water so I filled a 32 oz bottle and drank about 1/4 of it. Then I went into my basement and put on a Zumba DVD and danced. I really like it. The music is fun and the movements are not too hard to follow a long with. I may not be a great dancer, but at least it is an activity I enjoy. I am hoping the monkey feels better tomorrow so I can go to my actual Zumba class at the rec center. I love the instructor. She is very fun and also inspiring. She made up her mind to lose forty pounds a few years ago and she did it and has kept it off. She found Zumba and loved it so much she became an instructor. I really enjoy her class.

I got the kids' breakfast ready and decided on scrambled eggs with a bit of cheddar cheese for breakfast. I drank more water and had a banana as well. I hurried to get the kids' lunches ready (I will work on making theirs more healthy after I get myself taken care of) and then we headed off to school.

After we dropped the older kids off, I showered and took the time to do my hair and make up. I may not like my reflection right now, but I WANT to. Part of taking care of myself is treating myself nicely and I feel like I look nice when my hair is done and I have a bit of makeup.

Then I cleaned up and bit around the house. I really need to listen to music or books on tape when I clean because that is when the negative thoughts jump into my head.  I don't want to put them on here, but let's say the negative voices are now attaking my resolve to start changing my life. They don't like it too much. They want to beat me down to stay how I am. I am happy to say I wrote them all down as I went (15 negative statements later!) and I was able to let them go. I think I need to start singing "Let It Go" when I do. It is annoying enough that it would drown out the negative voices for just a minute. ;)

The negative voices like to work on my role as a mother especially. With my little guy sick, he hasn't wanted to do much--but watch cartoons and eat popsicles.  The voices were telling me that I was a horrible mother because I had not made him get dressed yet. Wow.  So easy to combat that. Two positive statements. I am a good mother and it is okay that my son is still in pajamas. He is sick for heaven's sake and he needs to take it easy.

Now on to planning my menus for the next week so that I can feel prepared and I don't find myself stopping at a drive through or stealing my kids' Halloween candy. :) I like to use sparkrecipes.com.

Lunch was a spinach salad with chicken and a little bit of ranch dressing. We then went grocery shopping. I felt very peakish--so I had a "natural" granola bar. I'm sure it wasn't too natural and then when we got home I stole some pie crust off of my husband's birthday apple pie from Monday.